Thoughts about death are persecuted. I can imagine how I die, how loved ones die. I have never tried to commit suicide, but sometimes I see very vivid options to die of life. I also

imagine how I kill a person, and it doesn’t matter whether familiar or not. I try not to enter into conflicts, I’m afraid of myself. It’s hard for me to control emotions. When they are too strong, I have failures in my memory, for a few seconds I do not know what I am doing, and I do not answer for my actions. Is it normal or is there a reason to contact a specialist?

Our subconscious speaks with us through feelings, images and thoughts. Often they are excessive, hypertrophied. For example, discontent or irritation can be embodied in thoughts like your. Listen to such a common phrase “I would kill …”. She means I am angry. In fact, no one is going to kill anyone. The picture in the head is terrible, and the emotion and reaction are quite acceptable.

Obsessive paintings and thoughts often – “within the conditional norm”. I wrote “conditional” because the absolute norm does not exist. People with obsessive character traits are especially susceptible to obsessive ideas. Sometimes they think about murder or suicide, it happens, they see realistic, frightening paintings.

A person may have the feeling that he is going crazy. But in the overwhelming majority of cases, there is nothing wrong with these thoughts, they are just the language of the subconscious.

You write: “I try not to enter into conflicts”. But for any person, it is important to show their anger and irritation outside and periodically be aggressive, defending their rights.

The depressed aggression looks like a boiler with a closed lid and without a valve. The pressure grows and at some point becomes critical, the explosion occurs. So it is with a person. Irritation accumulates and sooner or later pours into aggression, often for the most insignificant occasion. Therefore, it is important to be able to show aggression on time and dosed, so that there is no explosion.

As for failures in memory and visiting a psychologist, I personally consider going to a specialist a completely normal matter. It’s like visit a dentist. And if you are worried that harm someone is easier to visit a psychologist and make sure that everything is in order.

And if something is wrong-a psychiatrist or a clinical psychologist can prescribe corrective drugs, there is also nothing to worry about. If you are diagnosed in which you doubt it, it makes sense to consult two more specialists.